Every time I let my hair down and look in the mirror I feel like my face looks different. In as much as I have long beautiful and healthy hair, I hardly let my hair down because I feel like it changes how I look. To be honest its not my favorite hair-do yet so many of my friends and family tell me otherwise. I am more comfortable in my ponytail which I feel makes my face look good. Wearing my hair down is the one thing I have struggled with for a long time: Trying to change that mentality from,’not looking good or beautiful, to loving myself and how I look has been a struggle. The only time I enjoy wearing my hair down is when I wash it and let it air-dry; I love the Ethiopian look it gives me. I really hope that I will learn to be kind with my thoughts… I really do hope so.
Also, wearing a lot of make up isn’t my thing. I feel like it ages me and when it comes to eye shadow I prefer wearing nude colors that match my skin. Accepting to take these photos in this look was a struggle. Like seriously! I felt like the smokey eye-ish thing going on didn’t suite me. I guess I am my worst critic. In a world where we all aim at being perfect such insecurities creep in, it changes how we look and feel about ourselves. Talk about putting yourself down…
At times I usually get so excited about dressing up and wearing make up and the visuals in my head usually looks so good that when I get to the actual dressing up and wearing make up my energy and excitement drops to a 3 out of 1o. Thank God for my husband who helps me out when I experience these trivial criticism. He really is my second mirror and when I look good he points out and when I don’t he also tells me and we work out on improving the look.
Do any of you go through such episodes in your life? Do share in the comments section.
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