Being our 1st wedding anniversary month, July did not start very well for me. From loosing Zeus to experiencing lots of mixed emotions which left me feeling sad and broken.
I hardly wear my heart on my sleeves, but today I am.
Usually, I am very emotional and when someone hurts me with either their words or actions, it leaves me feeling very torn. My mind goes into a turmoil of thoughts as I try to figure out if I am the problem or not. Most of the time, I overthink too much that it leaves me feeling very vulnerable. When that feeling dawns in I start feeling helpless. Sleep becomes my portion. When I sleep my worries and thoughts are subsided. In my sleep, I find short-term peace.
My greatest weakness is holding on to such thoughts, but now I am tired of allowing myself to be consumed by such vices. I want to live a wholesome life and deal with such emotions and circumstances head on without giving them room to tear me apart. Sometimes, it’s hard to forget that which gave you so much to remember but for your own sanity and peace of mind, it is important not to hold on. I am learning to became like the wind; leaving the past in the past and focus on the future.
We all go through such times, but hardly do we share our burden(s) with a good and loyal listener. We leave such emotions to tear us apart as it rips away all of our joy, peace and happiness. I know at times it is hard to explain what is going on in your head when you do not understand it yourself but it is crucial that you find a way of opening up to that one trusted partner or friend. Hardly do they fully comprehend what you are going through but you will at-least have their shoulder to lean on. They will do what they can to lift up your spirits. Be vulnerable to them if you must. This is the only way to start healing and moving on.
Do not let your life disappear in the horizon, put your hand in a flowing stream and create new life and hope.
“Happiness is always there. You just have to choose to see it. There’s no point dwelling in the dark and ignoring the light of the stars.” ― Carrie Hope Fletcher
Everything will be okay.
These pictures depict emotions that I have gone through in the past. Right now my hand is in a flowing stream and I am finding new meaning and self appreciation.